What Was I Thinking?
Do we really know and understand what we are doing, when we ask GOD for something?
People ask for a new spouse, a new job, more money, a different house, etc. Why? Are we not satisfied with what we have? Was that notoriety, person, thing, spouse, car or job from the LORD, or did we choose it ourselves?
We always seem to want more. More is what we get sometimes, only to see, more is too much. We can't handle the extra money, time and responsibilities. Now what? We start to dishonor the King of Righteousness with the mess we create from our greed or unrest. When was the last time you had and resided in some Shalom (GOD's Peace)?
Has any of those things you asked for caused you to burn the candle at both ends? Have they taken away from your family? Have you bitten off more than you can chew with spending? Most certainly, those new additions will cost you some simplicity, and bring in the hurries and flurries of a restless life. What about that job or a new boss? Are they all you wanted? Did GOD tell you to leave? Did He open the doors, or do we kick them in? We have not even touched the relationship, spousal and boyfriend and girlfriend tailspin.
I know many Christians (surrendered folks) who just don't get it. We appear to be trying to keep up with what the non-Jesus obeying people are doing. We not only bed-hop, but spouse-swap--just like the world. Where do we draw the Line?
Can we not be satisfied with what we have? ...even if what we have was not His choice for us, but our own? Well... What say you? I remember, sometime ago, I was in some major discontent with my then employment. After several years there, my Savior’s Spirit told me, "Contentment with godliness, is great gain." Uh oh! I did some research on that. I was not even remotely content. I thought I was BETTER prepared to serve in another location than where I was.
Little did I know at that stage of my journey with He and His Scriptures, that was a quote of Living Water. It changed my life! My life changed from that encounter on. Did I stop wanting change? Nope. What I did was ask more questions. Some of them were… "Should I do this? Should I do that?" I did not move, or make a decision, until I heard from Him. I was learning to live contently where I was. It became even tougher where I was!
After another year, a man walked up to me while I was working and offered me a job I had not applied for.
I still employ that Scripture reference He told me, which always begs the question, "What was I thinking, when I started wandering and doing things in my own way and rejecting what I had?”
What about you? Are you doing the same things I was? Are you willing to seek His Truth and Guidance and be content to make what you have and where you are better?